My mother nursed me at breast for two years, but that is all the mothering I ever got. My whole life, I guess, I have been in search of a mother. I have been blessed with many strong women in my life. One of them was my Chinese teacher in university. I loved her as a mother, it is true. She never had any children; I never had a mother, really; so we were good for one another. Of course, she never directly expressed any affection for me, but she let me care for her in the most intimate of ways. There is no greater expression of affection than that. Again, I am crying.